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Coming back to this site on and off again to remember the artist I once was. I miss it sometimes but it’s so hard to scan and update so I just don’t. I really don’t know what to write in here except that I’m a different person now. And my goal is now to make myself happy instead of always trying to make someone else happy.

Its been awhile since I've wrote anything in this section and I've just been thinking about a lot of things. Life isn't always that great but I can't really complain, I have a wonderful guy and a beautiful cat to complete my family. Sometimes it does feel like I'm missing something but I'm not sure what. I guess I may never know, I've started writing again (kinda) and same with my artwork, but I haven't really known what to draw and how to my feelings on to paper. Months keeping on passing me by and I just feel like I'm stuck in a rut and not accomplishing anything. ugh..

September is a month of pain. I've never noticed this until now. I used to enjoy September because it meant going back to school, yes, I was a little weird that way but it never changed how I felt until this year. Yes, there was 9/11 and I'm sorry to say it never affected me like it affected some and my prayers are with those. But this year it has been different for me, one of my friends had died and she hadn't even hit her 21st birthday, only one year away. It pains me to think that I'll never get to party with her again, never see her face. But some how I know she's here, having the time of her dead life floating around and checking up on p